[	Mood	|	peaceful	]
[	Music	|	slung lo - erin mckeown	]

things are going awesome...friday was cool, i got to hang out with michelle libby jen and alex...we went to the march then downtown and then i had a basketballl tournament in Boston saturday and sunday...some things are so fucked up- but life is still   g o o d .

"Everyone knows, give it some time

You'll find what you have lost..."

[	Mood	|	amused	]
[	Music	|	radio	]

haha what a vacation...first off me and sarah left the cape of the cod at likeee idk 7? then we stopped for brekfast at some place in barnstable and steve and laurie (sarahs mudda and fudda) knew like 4 people there...they know everybody.  anyways after that we werre on the open roaddd. then everybody (8 of us) stopped at a mcdonalds some place inn connecticut or something for lunch. sarah and i stayed in the car, and we figured out that there was a gay mexican convention at the mcdonalds...we saw a man with leather pants and a testicle necklace, and his "friend" didnt look gay at first, but then he checked out some other guys ass, so we knew he was a flamer. then sarah and i decided t was the perfect time to play sweet and sour, because we were stuck in traffic. so we were waving to everybody, and we saw a little boy in a truck and waved to him...he gave us the most dirty look and then he laughed at us...(little bastard). dso everytime he [assed we would wave like we knew him and he would tell his dad and his dad would look at us and wed stop waving...yeah so after that we got to ocean city new jersey at aroundd 5 or so, and we went to the boardwalk. it was like 60-something degrees that night and on the boardwalk we were walking into some store and these 2 guys walked by and said "sup maah ladieeees?" and waved and me and sarah just kept walking. the next day it got to about 78 i would say and we went shopping (sorta) and chilled on the beach, which was nice. we forgot our boards though, so most of our time was spent on the boardwalk. the next day we left ocean city and drove for like 4 years to get to virginia. we took a ferry for like 1 1/2 hours and i fell asleep and woke up sick and with a sunburn...but once we got to the hotel it was 6 so we went to dinner and then me sarah josh and zach walked back to the hotel and went in the pool, but then some mexican boys came into the ppool, and they killed Harris, our waiter, and strung him up by his heels and cut him open and stuff--so we left.(the resturaunt we ate at was full of ghosts, like our water guy, chris, he died of smallpox, and Harris was murdered by a group of mexicans in the Harris war.) anyways ill quickly ssum up the rest of our trip: naked man in bed, rutgers, driving in one car with 8 people for 10 hours, william and mary (college in virginia), driving, university of richmond, driving, hotel with outdoor pool, outdoor pool is freezing, sleep, mary washington, driving, university of maryland, driving, grandmas, home.

could have been better, but we went to see colleges mostly, and not to have fun, haha. but next year were going up to OC and just staying there for a week, no problems.

summer cant come soon enough. just 49 dayssssssss

[	Mood	|	aggravated	]
[	Music	|	Rubberband Man (by who?)	]

boom-ba. today is GINAS BIRTHDAAAAY!!!!! HOORAAAAY!!! happy birthday gina i heart u a million: )...today was also the dance contest thing for gym..haha and on account of my "irresponsible behavior"--as mrs williams puts it-- we were disqualified, whoopsss. hey what i did wasnt THAT bad, its just that our principal hates me because i was suspended last year for being a tad bit eccentric during softball season, oh yeah and because mrs andrews loves boys and hates all the girls in her health class...hmm, sexist?

anyways that was gay, i got 2 lectures from ms andrews and 1 lecture from the red headed lady who calls herself our principal. FUNNN DAAAYYY

ahh 3 more monthssss thats all!!

[	Mood	|	peaceful	]
[	Music	|	My Stupid Mouth - John Mayer	]

(Mark X if true)

(x) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DRUNK
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN TO CHURCH
(x) I NEVER HAVE SMOKED POT
(_) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX
(_) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(x) I NEVER CRASHED A FRIEND'S CAR
(x) I NEVER BEEN TO JAPAN
(x) I NEVER RODE IN A TAXI
(x) I NEVER HAD ANAL SEX
(x) I NEVER HAVE BEEN IN LOVE
(x) I NEVER HAD SEX
(x) I NEVER HAVE HAD SEX IN PUBLIC
(x) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DUMPED
(_) I NEVER SHOPLIFTED
(x) I NEVER HAVE BEEN FIRED
(x) I NEVER BEEN IN A FIST FIGHT
(x) I NEVER HAD A THREESOME
(x) I NEVER SNUCK OUT OF MY PARENT'S HOUSE
(x) I NEVER BEEN TIED UP (SEXUALLY)
(x) I NEVER BEEN CAUGHT MASTURBATING
(x) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(x) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX
(x) I NEVER BEEN ARRESTED
(x) I NEVER MADE OUT WITH A STRANGER
(x) I NEVER STOLE SOMETHING FROM MY JOB
(x) I NEVER CELEBRATED NEW YEARS IN TIME SQUARE
(x) I NEVER WENT ON A BLIND DATE
(_) I NEVER LIED TO A FRIEND
(x) I NEVER HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER
(x) I NEVER CELEBRATED MARDI-GRAS IN NEW ORLEANS
(x) I NEVER BEEN TO EUROPE
(_) I NEVER SKIPPED SCHOOL
(x) I NEVER SLEPT WITH A CO-WORKER
(x) I NEVER HAVE BEEN FISTED AND/OR HAVE NEVER FISTED ANYONE
(x) I NEVER HAVE THROWN UP IN A BAR
(x) I NEVER HAVE PURPOSELY SET A PART OF MYSELF ON FIRE
(x) I HAVE NEVER WATCHED A JOAN CRAWFORD MOVIE WHILE ON MUSHROOMS
(x) I HAVE NEVER FOUND MYSELF ON A ASIAN GAY RENT BOY PORN SITE
(x) I HAVE NEVER HAD SEX, WITH TWO OTHER PEOPLE ALSO HAVING SEX IN THE ROOM AT THE SAME TIME
(_) I HAVE NEVER BEEN TO NEW YORK CITY
(x) I NEVER CUT MYSELF ON PURPOSE
(x) I NEVER HAD SEX AT THE OFFICE
(x) I NEVER GOTTEN MARRIED ...officially
(x) I NEVER GOTTEN DIVORCED
(_) I NEVER RAISED MY VOICE TO MY MOTHER
(x) I NEVER GOT A SPEEDING TICKET
(x) I NEVER FUCKED AN ANIMAL
(x) I HAVE NEVER WITNESSED A DEATH
(_) I HAVE NEVER WORKED SERVING/COOKING FOOD
(x) I HAVE NEVER WORKED FOR THE GOVERNMENT
(x) I HAVE NEVER CHANGED A FLAT TIRE
(x) I NEVER HAVE BEEN TO JAMAICA
(x) I NEVER HAD DRUNK SEX
(_) I NEVER PLAYED AN ORGANIZED SPORT
(x) I NEVER HAVE HAD GOOD ORAL SEX
(_) I NEVER CAUGHT MY PARENTS HAVING SEX thank god (eeeew i was like 4, scarred for LIFE.)
(x) I NEVER DROPPED ACID
(x) I NEVER HAVE HAD SEX WITH SOMEONE WHO WAS MARRIED
(x) I NEVER HIT AN ANIMAL WHILE DRIVING
(_) I NEVER THREW UP IN PUBLIC
(x) I NEVER BEEN TO MEXICO
(_) I NEVER LIED TO A LOVER ABOUT MY FEELINGS
(x) I NEVER HAVE GONE MORE THAN 72 HOURS WITHOUT ANY SLEEP )
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN ATTRACTED TO SOMEONE YOUNGER THAN ME
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN ATTRACTED TO SOMEONE OLDER THAN ME
(x) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH SOMEONE FIVE OR MORE YEARS OLDER THAN ME
(x) I NEVER HAVE BOUGHT ILLEGAL SUBSTANCES
(_) I NEVER TOLD SOMEONE I LOVED THEM
(x) I NEVER HAVE RECIEVED AN F
(_) I HAVE NEVER THROWN UP
(x) I HAVE NEVER WISHED I COULD DIE

oh fuck yes...basketball tomorrow.

[	Mood	|	sick	]
[	Music	|	stunt 101 (G-unit)	]

hahaha. oh god, babies in flower pots.

last night i went to alexs and we hung out at her house and had a yippity doo da time. "i don't take no crud from nobody pushin me around!"...hahaha...we went for a walk downtown this morning and it was coooooold...so cold.

[	Mood	|	anxious	]
[	Music	|	The joker (steve miller band)	]

I wish: I could read minds…or that everybody could just smile all the time
I love: my friend…surfing and basketball..baked potatoes..ahh soo much more
I hate: racism, stubborn people, assholes…I hate a lot of things
I miss: being 5
I fear: change (bad change)
I feel: happy…and confused
I hear: wind and Billy Joel (uptown girl)
I smell: lemons
I crave: Zazz…basketball…the beach and summer
I search: for something, but I don’t know what yet
I wonder: why murderers murder
I regret: NOTHING
When was the last time you ...
Smiled? I don’t know, a minute ago?
Laughed? Ten minutes ago
Cried?: a week ago
Bought?: A movie ticket last night
Were sarcastic?: It's been a while…
Watched your favorite movie?: A looong time since ive watched ANY of my favorite movies
Last book you read: in school, were reading Huck Finn, but on my own time, probably A Tree Grows In Brooklyn
Last song you heard: Uptown Girl (Billy Joel) haha
Last thing you had to drink: Seltzer
Last time you showered: 8:35 A.M.
Last thing you ate: haven’t eaten yet today. but probably mozzarella sticks.
Do You...
Smoke?: don’t and won’t
Do drugs?: No... I like my brain the way it is, thank you.
Sleep with stuffed animals?: no not really
Live in the moment?: I try to, but sometimes I can’t help thinking the worst of the future
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: no, I haven’t had a dream in a while that I remember.
Play an instrument?: Nope
Believe there is life on other planets?: yep
Remember your first love?: haha…I try not to

Still love him/her?: um, no.
Believe in miracles?: Yes.
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: mmhmm.
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: to a certain extent.
Consider love a mistake?: Love is never a mistake. Unless you love a sex offender
Like the taste of alcohol?: of course
Have a favorite candy?: skittles and Swedish fish. And reciees piecees (yumm)
Believe in magic? Of course, anything is possible...
Believe in God?: Yes I do
Pray?: Often
Go to church: I used to go a lot, but since we moved I don’t go so often
Have any secrets?: A few
Have any pets?: Yes yes, one dog, soon to be two
Do well in school?: On the most part…
Go to or plan to go to college?: UCONN babbbbyyyy
Have a major?: Not yet
Talk to strangers who instant message you?: ehh no
Wear hats?: Yeaa I need some to be able to wear them
Have any piercings?: ears…soon to be another one tho
Have any tattoos?: Not yet
Hate yourself?: Never
Have an obsession?: basketball, surfing, and uhh…idk decorating haha
Have a secret crush?: Sort of..
Do they know yet?: I don’t think so, because I don’t exactly like them
Collect anything?: old things, like old Coke advertisements, haha…yes strange collection
Have a best friend?: I have a few best friends, and some other really great friends.
Wish on stars?: There are better things to wish upon.
Like your handwriting?: it’s not Rachel Cooks, I love her hand writing.
Have any bad habits?: Yeah, I say “haha” a lot, and I curl my toes, and I have sme other ones too.
Be serious or be funny? Depends on the moment.
Boxers or briefs? Neither, I prefer going commando.
Whole or skim milk? Whole, but I drink 2%
Single or Taken? Sa-ingle
Simple or complicated? *Confused*
Law or anarchy? Law I guess
Flowers or angels?: Angels

Grey or gray? Grey.
Read or write? Why pick? You can't have one without the other.
Color or black-and-white photos? Depends on the picture
Sunrise or sunset? Both.
M&M's or Skittles? SKITTLES BITCH!
Rap or rock? Little bit of both
Stay up late or wake up late? Both.
TV or Radio? If it’s not MAD TV, southpark, SNL, full house, stand up, the Cosby Show, I love the 70’s or 80s, or sister sister, it’s the radio.
Is it POP or SODA? of course it's soda.
X or O in Tic-tac-toe? O
Blue or black? Depends on what it is. Both are depressing. But I like black
Eat an apple or an orange? Gross neither, but apple juice is way better.
What came first the chicken or the egg? Don’t know, don’t care.
Hot or Cold: HOT
Tall members of the opposite sex or short? TALL.
Sun or moon? Both
Emerald or ruby? Ruby
Left or right? Right.
10 acquaintances or 1 best friend? 1 best friend
Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? vanilla
High or Drunk? drunk. Definitely drunk.
Green beans or carrots? Asparagus
Low fat or fat free? Fat Free And Low Fat, some foods are gross with nothing in it.
Pie or Cake? CAKE
Chewable or non chewable vitamins?: chewable
Kids or no kids? Kids
Cat or dog? Dog
Half empty or half full? Half Full.
Mustard or ketchup? Ketchup on everything.
Newspaper or magazine? Magazines.
Sandals or sneakers? Reef flippers
Wonder or amazement? amazement
Red car or white car? Pink car
Singing or dancing? both
Corduroy or plaid? corduroy
Happy or sad? Happy!
Purple or green? red.
HAVE YOU EVER:
Been kissed? Si senor(a).
Done drugs? Never have, never wil.
Eaten sushi? Yes.
Eaten an entire box of oreos? Hah no
Gotten in a car accident? Nope.
Hiked a mountain? no
Stayed home on a Saturday night just because? I need a life.
DO YOU PREFER:
Blue or Red? Red.
New or old? Old friends, but new things…like clothes.
Rain or snow? Light summer rain. January heavy snow.
Have you ever slept outside? Yes
Give or receive? both
Rose or Daisy? Rose
Private school or public school? public
History or Science? Grosss neither
English or math? ENGLISH
Do you like someone right now from the opposite sex: Sort of
A slight crush on a certain guy? Slight is the word.
What do you look for in a woman or man? Hair, eyes, personality, and similar likes and dislikes. Haha.
Do you have a best friend? Lots.
Who's your cutest friend? Libby!
Who do you e-mail the most? Jen or Rachel
How many people have you slept with: Many girls. No boys…yet.
How many potatoes have you eaten in the past two days? 2
Are you procrastinating right now? Yes.
Are you smiling right now? Haha yess.
Have you ever cried for a movie? Yeah…Armageddon…
Have you ever cried for a song? A lot of times…
Have you ever cried for a book? Nopeeee.
Have you ever cried for a painting? Never.

enough said. sort of. maybe not...

hope invited me to a globetrotters game and i cant go...

last night i went to the movies mwith ichelle and alex and we saw starksy and hutch--it was funny..

tonight im going to alex's and sleeping there, yaay!

you're the cutest thing I ever did see

[	Mood	|	so so....	]
[	Music	|	Bitch - Alanis Morisette	]

today was boring. bizzoring. ahhh being in fights suck, u cant talk and everything gets all fucked uppp...i just wish that person wasnt being so immature about it. being in a fight doesnt mean u have to fucking sit at another table...but whatever. other than that, today was pretty good. after softball (yaay) i went to the rec and played basketball forlike an hour...it was gooodddd to be back on the court. supposedly im supposed to be playing at the rec everyday after softball for a half hour, because i need practice for aau...but i doubt i will.

I’m faded, flat busted
Been   j a d e d  I been  d u s t e d
I know that I’ve seen better days
One foot in the hole one foot gettin’ deeper
Crank it to eleven and blow another speaker
And I ain’t got, I ain't got much to lose

[	Mood	|	amused	]
[	Music	|	Recess	]

today was alright. until after school. i had to go to the dentist ahhh i hate drills and i HAAAATE that cold air stuff baaah.

im gonna go watch recess:-)

[	Mood	|	indescribable	]
[	Music	|	Chappelle's Show	]

today was good, softball started:-D. im so happyyyy gaaah this season is gonna be loadssss of fun. but i want 2 girls on the team to cut their arms off...

oh well. im gonna go talk to pa pa patrick, my best friend ever, and ginaaa...yaay

if i was president, if i was president..

[	Mood	|	moody	]
[	Music	|	The Reason - Hoobastank	]

Okay well today was good and bad. i got my new softball glove (good) i fixed everyhting with libby (good) i have new problems with somebody (bad). but i guess ill just talk to her about everything later.

softball starts monday, i think, and its gonna be awesomeeee. we have like...idk 25 girls trying out this year, its gonna be crazy...hmm...ill write later.

[	Mood	|	discontent	]
[	Music	|	Through The Wire - Kanye West	]

i dont know how things are as of right now. i mean, a few days ago, everything sucked. everybody was pissed at taryn. i gossip way to much. i can keep secrets, but i still talk about some things, and everytime i do, it turns around and bites me in the ass. every time.

basketball sucked tonight. i mean it was fun, but i was doing so shitty...my shots are completely off and i dont want to go and play at the rec because nobody else will play with me..whenever i go to the rec it is never to play basketball...question mark?

i hate being in fights.having people be mad at me is the worst. especially when they dont forgive me. i cant wait until summer...its gonna be awesome.

i was supposed to go to mariahs house tonight, but i got back from basketball at 11:15...so i didnt end up going (frown).

but next weekend im suposed to hang out with everybody. should be fun fun fun.

hmm....i hope next week doesnt suck.

[	Mood	|	stressed	]
[	Music	|	DMX - Ya'll Gonna Make Me Act A Fool	]

im sorry everybody. i dont mean to be a bad person, i try to help. but whenever i try to make everybody happy i always fuck it up somehow. i hate how things are right now. frankly, things suck in general. im so scared for you, you don't even realize...

i just want everything to be right. things are pretty fucked as of right now, but they will get better....i hope.

[	Mood	|	hopeful	]
[	Music	|	My Band - D12	]

today was very boring.  school. home. phone...then i went to sarahs and we had just one dandy night...michelle was there (yaay) and we talked and drew pictures...well michelle drew me a lovely picture (which is going on my walll by the way) and then i came home with my brother.phone and typing this entry...haha isnt it just the greatest thing uve EVER heard? now im on the

everything is different now, and i cant do anything to change it.

[	Mood	|	mmm	]
[	Music	|	Tootsie Roll - 69 Boys	]

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I loveable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Who would play me in a movie?
18. What book or movie character would be my best archnemesis?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
21. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
22. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?

-from rachels livejournal...answer this and send it to me  on IM

[	Mood	|	scared for you	]
[	Music	|	Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer	]

i love sunny days... i cant wait til it hits 60 and me and raya and sarah get to take the day off...ahh. it will be great this summer, it will. well today i might go to the movies, but i have to go out to dinner with my great aunt and uncle who are comin upp, which sort of ruins my plans....but tomorrows another day, more time for plans. hah

it has been one crazy saturday, and its only 1:06